Confusing mind

Today afternoon i just went friends house and study at her home..
Finally, nothing to get only falled sleep at there!!!hehe^_^
Lol..exam is coming soon lerr..How to face it?? Sure fail la...
But i think you as my target, so i will try my best!!
You as my force and energy...Aza..Aza ..Fighting~~hehe
I always think that question, i need to talk out??
I think you my best friend, without you a day,
I think that was a bored and lonely day...
Only your appear can make it become brilliant and wonderful...
Because of you i become selfish who want to take over you!
I hate myself..But i cannot control it! Only if i leave you far away..
What should i do now???