End of secondary school life~~

Finally SPM was finish last day, my secondary school's life end up already!
Now i have to find a good job which can improve my experience and earn a lot money..
However, I still considering on that question. I should solve it early already.
But, Cause of all my best and joyous'memory you always be there with me.
I had stubborn to deleted all that photo, but after a few day I to find back the photo or restore it.
I think you really be the character important in my page of life. You make my secondary life more colourful and pleasant.
Although now we are not friend anymore but I am feel glad have a BEST friend such like you!
Unthinkable, you should cause her one words and leave me there scare and crying.
That i felt dissapointed and believe you are not that cruel like that WOMAN.
So I hope i can leave here as fast as possible. I would like to enjoy and relax on outside.
I can go a whole new world and start all of something new!!!

I have already give up, Start all somethings new~

Yesterday i cant slept well because i was incommode by some problem. This problem incommode around me almost two years. but, finally I be come convinced. I know what should i do the next step. In fact, I already think too much on this problem. I always like to trump up alot excuse to console oneself. Before of that I try to give up it and relax. But every time also failure. This time was different , I really can out the suffer and let oneself can live without tears. My tears was dried and my heart beat was slow down. All will start of something new.
I will always remind myself , dun let it hurt and make you cry. It was past.
Exam is coming soon, still remaining 25 days. OMG!!!
Without this problem, I can concentrate on my study...

好久没写部落格了，这几个月里发生了不少事情，所以在这几个月过得不是很开心，哈哈！友情的定义对我来讲是很重要的，但有时你会认为我很虚伪。有时候我会承认我有犯错的时候，但我会尝试去解释，我希望你会听，但有时你却说我是在狡辩为自己找理由，我真的很伤心，如果你是这样想那我也没办法。经过那件事过后，我和你很少交谈了，聚在一起的时间也少了，不知这是好还是不好，我觉得现在的情况就象回回去我们刚同班的时候，你有你在那儿静静的读书，我有我在那儿讲话，这也好，不然我又会惹到你生气了，你也不用再忍我了，这你也过得较平静，哈哈！欣虹，不管我们没那么好了，你永远都是我最好的朋友，对不起，我会更加的珍惜你！
前几个星期，我有一个朋友-A，她因为恼脾气吧！所以很另外一个朋友B不和了！A朋友曾经告诉我，叫我一定要珍惜B朋友。结果现在A和B不和了。我也很懊恼，想帮她们和好。可是B突然变得很倔强，可能她真的很气了吧！A也和她道歉了，但…我能帮上什么忙？
真的很希望A可以原谅B，尽管B有不对，多一个朋友，少一个敌人，B会担心不能和A像以前那么好了，这也难免，除了我和Liao Liao啦！哈哈…在A面前提起B，B依然还是A的朋友。B我们都要毕业了，别带着这种心情离校吧！
有时朋友与朋友之间一定会有些磨差的，但别太久喔！有时经过一些吵架，我们可以更了解彼此…所谓“不经一事不长一智”，哈哈哈！
我们距离离校的时间越来越短了，真的很不舍曾经一起上课的时光，希望离校后，我们都可以保持联络啦～～
预考刚过，我的成绩不是很佳和理想，希望可以考到好一些在总考试时，18/11/2009 SPM的到来，最近都没有什么心情读书，还剩不到一个月就要考试了，拜托，快紧去背书吧！
我也预祝中五的朋友们可以考到佳绩吧！Gambattei~~

好久没写日记了，就简略的把它写出来吧！
在这几个月里发生了不少事..哈哈～～

29/5/2009-1/6/2009
我和一班朋友到一个很美的岛屿去游玩。那就是“热浪岛”，
那里的景色比我想象中的还要美，海水很清澈见底。
我还是第一次和朋友到那麽远去。我很喜欢那里的生活，
无忧无虑，而且那里的人都很热情，对我们都很好。
那里的天空真的不一样，闪闪发亮的星星高挂在天空，
数都数不清，到现在我还可记得那个画面。我们还有出海去看
海里生物，好多漂亮，罕见的生物与珊瑚，很美丽。
我们在那里享受的餐也很丰富，虽然有时会咸了点！
在那里我们也闹了不少笑话，与拍了些照片。
时间过得很快，三天的旅程就到了一段落，依依不舍
的就要回来这里，心情都还没恢复原来，哈哈！
Ser Hooi, Shi Yee, Chang Yee, NaNa, Shuack Wei,Ah pei, ZhenYang and Kah Loon..
谢谢你们，有你们这些回忆变得更美丽，精彩。 真的很开心当我们同在一起～～
希望我们还有机会一起去游玩～～NextStation???
<热浪岛之旅> 续~~

热浪岛回来以后，就要准备考试和乐队比赛。
加上今年是SPM与参与乐队比赛的最后一年，压力得来又非常不舍。
这次的月考考得不是很好，但有些比以往佳，这也可安慰下。
乐队县赛和州赛都过去了，很不幸的我们却输了～～
把每个人的心情都拉倒谷底了，但一定要懂得
爬回上来，不会永远沉在谷底，失败乃是成功之母。
哭也哭过了，伤心，沮丧也过了，一切都要回到原来。
Nan Hwa Marching Band..You Are The Best!
相信当晚每个观众都知道，加油！2010年做得更好～～

After I knew the truth, can i endure?

25minutes ago, I received a mail from a friend who lost connect many years ago.
I felt excited when received this mail. I thought he/she forget me already.
But when the end of this mail, i get shock. Because i saw something was i don think before de.
This mail I had deleted. After I knew the truth, I felt helpless, regret and upset.
It turns out to be a fraud. Wasting my a lot time for wait your contact.
Beside that, today I heard had received a message too. Through the conversation, finally I knew another answer I waiting long time already. But It was negative. I just realize regret and wont waste time again. Although my heart is pain and like cant breath, but this just short period. The actual position that just a correct way. Today i really so sad and moody when knew this two truth, but that just short period. I wont lose and yield.
Next Friday I join a trip which is a go a great , beautiful island. Maybe i can relaxing through this journey. I am going with my classmate. This maybe is a last chance travel with all of them. Addition, actually this Friday is my friend birthday who stay in my hometown. but i cant join and celebrate with them because i go Pulau Redang. This maybe is a last chance too. After graduate maybe less chance can gather. We didn't gather almost three month. Really miss them so much and much. Former, distance can let someone think for someone although far apart..

Exam 1st day...

Today is our school 1st day of mid-year ezam.
The subjects all I not clear and lazy to study..But when i take the exam-paper, I felt regretful.
Why I forgot this ?? My brain was empty...
SPM is coming soon and closer with me. I really dunno how to confront it??
I don't want fail. However, I will try my best because this is my last chance.
Day after day, I need to tell out what i think about you??
I have tell you cause i think you as my best friend.
But i worry will hurt or you will dislike me at all.But i feel thankful cause you always beside m3^_^
Haiz..The continuous week is ezam time too. Hurry over, I can go relax soon.
Beside that, the holidays coming soon , I will stay school for practice band. The competition is coming too. I still don't know can i complete it as well. Without confidence.
Sorry, I din fulfill one's promise.....

Confusing mind

Today afternoon i just went friends house and study at her home..
Finally, nothing to get only falled sleep at there!!!hehe^_^
Lol..exam is coming soon lerr..How to face it?? Sure fail la...
But i think you as my target, so i will try my best!!
You as my force and energy...Aza..Aza ..Fighting~~hehe
I always think that question, i need to talk out??
I think you my best friend, without you a day,
I think that was a bored and lonely day...
Only your appear can make it become brilliant and wonderful...
Because of you i become selfish who want to take over you!
I hate myself..But i cannot control it! Only if i leave you far away..
What should i do now???

Bored day..

Today i went to the tailor shop for make our group t-shirt.
hehe..I like that t-shirt because the design special with other.
Just 15 minutes ago, i felt moody and like want to cry...
Because i heard someone said about that...
I hate and scare it..I have to stop it...
The 1st time i got feel like that, din happen formerly!!1
Wad should i do now??? I feel so suffer....''''

This is the 1st time i wrote my blog here..
The examination midyear is coming. I dunno how to face it. I worry about mu studying cant excel.
But i will try my best to get it well.
Beside that, busy on practice band currently. Because the competition is coming soon. This year i think i will worse than last year. I cant play well. How to solve it?? Who can help me??
But i will feel thankful to min xin as my senior. She always beside me and support me. I wont let u disappointed.^^
After the mid- year examination, I'll join a journey where go Pulau Redang. I going with mu classmate this time. Hope that are en joyful and funny journey.
Apart from that, I feel i cant stop thinking of you. I realize you become more and more important for me. Appear of your can complete my whole day. It will be a hinder.

我还是我？

不经意地走进一个不属于自己的地方

就好像被一团寒风包围着，窒息似的

勉强自己做一些伤害自己的事

也许是天真，也许是因为“爱”..

占据那领域的我

却没有任何空间去容纳你的爱

你的眼泪，你的呵护..

一切都是对生命的灌溉..

想给你一些话，想给你一颗真心不假

让我的爱就有了天堂，幸福与快乐都被延长

那无情的枷锁，无意的束缚

正是平息那翻腾的心情的钥匙..

脑海里充满了你的呵护，你的笑容

点缀在那平淡的回忆里,

时真时假，好像发了一场梦..

如果是真的，我情愿永远活在梦里..

跨过那原本的界线

是我的过错还是你的后悔？

只好期待着某天不会就这样落空

对你有了感觉就等于要迷失自己..

选择能熬过那孤寂的生活还是活在梦里?

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